I hear this little melody playing from my phone starting off so softly and gradually getting a little louder, and a little louder, my eyes begin to open and very quickly I come to recognize that same ol’ feeling of hopelessness and sadness that just screams, “but I don’t wanna get up!”
I am NOT a morning person and I am definitely not a Monday morning person, and even more than that, I am not a Rainy Cold Monday Morning person! I feel so strongly about these feeling that trust me, I could keep going, and I KNOW I am not alone on these feelings.
As I am staring into my closet wondering what on earth I want to wear on this day, I just feel so needy. I need new clothes. I need shoes. I need more sleep. I need to just wake up and be happy and perky. Ugh, I just need a new closet! I’m never fashionable at Spring or Fall cause it’s still such a in between time and I am still too cold to wear open toe shows now. So I as hard as I am trying I’m not able to push myself forward into this Springtime just yet. I should be looking out the window and able to accept these rainy days and see all the beauty that is coming from it. It is God’s beauty and how it proves that each day, the earth is changing, the trees, the leaves, the grass, etc.
Nope! It’s not just another Monday!
So with these thoughts…my attitude changed. Nope! It’s not just another Monday. It’s a Monday, the beginning of the week. It’s a new day! A New start! A day 1 out of the next 5 that I can spend at work accomplish goals and making a difference, be able to be my creative self, etc.
But the mom in me NEEDS to be home. There are things that I need to accomplish. I need today to be a Monday with 5 days to accomplish “family stuff” and be there for my children, Wally, and more importantly, to Bless my House and my Finances!
Here I sit at my desk and find myself drifting into mothering so easy. My children are on my mind today as they too experience this Monday. So many things happening. It truly doesn’t matter their age, they are our children and we will always feel their excitement, but also their pain and daily struggles as they continue to learn and grow.
It’s so hard as parents to watch the struggles your kids are fighting. We can’t always help, as bad as we want. We need to have the hope and just remember, these struggles today will not be the same as tomorrow. Just as with us…each day is different and we constantly are going through changes each day. Mentally and well, truthfully, physically. It doesn’t matter the age, we are gradually growing older and maturing, good or bad.
So in this time of reflection, I turn to my words, phrases, and inspiration that keeps me moving FORWARD!
I have NOT yet reached my full Potential!
I was on a call with a business coach years ago and she asked me a very important question – Have you reached your full potential? “Of course NOT”, I answered.
How appropriate today, we have not reached our full potential. In these daily changes we are enduring, we are growing and learning and as long as we are propelling ourselves forward, and we encourage our children to do the same, then are winning!
“He’s still working on me!
There is a song that I learned growing up that I still sing to do this day, I sing it loud and proud and when I feel like a mess and totally screwed up, I sing it louder.
“It took him just a week to make the moon and start, the sun and earth and Jupiter and Mars. How loving and patient he much be, cause he’s still working on me!”
But, my grown up song is one that I heard YEARS ago and continue to sing and listen to as well, one that you just need to Crank It Up and Dance!
I’m a Change in the Making.
With every step that I’m taking
Everyday, you’re chipping away
What I don’t need
This is me under construction
This is my pride being broken
Everyday I’m closer to who I’m meant to be
I’m a change in the making
A bike can not function without motion.
You, Me, our children, our spouses. We’ve got to get up, go to to work, and do our absolute best at all times!
We need to continue to strive to reach and set higher goals. It’s when we stop and feel complacent that we have give up.
There is also learning, more to explore. The earth continues to spin, that is what makes the days. If it were stop, just stop right where it was, where would you find yourself? Our bikes would fall over, with us on it!
So on this Monday, set yourself in a new motion. If you fail, pick up the bike and start again on Tuesday. Pedal hard on this up hill battles, and remember it’s freeing to coast and kick your feet off the pedals every once in awhile, but in order to keep your balance you must keep moving!
The struggle of today, will pass!
Pick up that phone, and give yourself the Biggest Selfie Kiss and celebrate you, in motion!
Keep pedaling my friend,
April 18, 2017. The morning of my 45th Birthday.
God’s Gift of Life to Me – the Total Package
Do you ever get out of the shower, standing there totally disheveled looking from just towel drying your hair, raw, butt naked and find yourself just wanting to stay like this, in this moment, for just a few more minutes? The REAL deal. The body that God gave you but you have tweaked a bit with a little more pounds and cellulite than you remember, redness in the face and chest and old age marks that maybe you didn’t deal with in the past?
This is the body that has gone from “yo yo” diets to “3 day diets” and then, well quite frankly, no diet! This body created 3 beautiful children, the smallest was 8 lbs, and the largest was 10 lbs 3 oz. (Oh yes, I am making sure that 3 oz in there!)
This is a body that as a young girl and teenager was athletic, always. It experienced a few broken bones, been mistreated as softball catcher as the knees are a little worn, shoulder suffered a bit, and we can’t forget the broken noses! My mom said it gives it character!
Well now that I stand here looking as a 45 year WOMAN, I see so much more. I see a tired woman that has given so much every day. My giving has been more mental that physical. The financial CFO of the household, mom, wife, daughter, and go-to for the family to make it ALL PERFECT, is now worn. I don’t really feel old. Well, ok lately, yes I do.
I know I am only 45. I am just reaching the 1/2 way mark of my life. I have so many years to look forward to! My children are grown. The 9 lb baby born 16 years ago is the last, and not quite so needy. So now I step back…drop the towel and think…this is me, God. This is what you created and I can only continue to live each day and protect this body, and do my best to be proud of it. But, honestly, it’s not easy. I don’t even recognize myself in pictures, much less, naked. Wait, what is that wrinkle? Where did that come from?
I constantly say I am so thankful for the 22 products I put on my body each day. For that is what makes me feel like who I am, who I want to be. We want to hide all of this nakedness cause we just aren’t comfortable in it. Why???
Sometimes it feels that with each swipe of the lotion, the creamy coldness touching your skin, we feel like it’s us renewing ourselves. The eye lifting serum in hopes we can remain bright eyed. The under eye cream to help fight the dark circles so we remain looking well rested when we find it harder to sleep due to stress and worry. A renewal is taking place with each swipe, product, and scent, that once we are done putting the finishing touches of the clothes that fit our body type just right and hide that roll and new bulge, down to the heel on our shoe that completely describes our mood for that day. Powerful heel, trendy wedge, or maybe narrowed down to our pair of comfy shoes to help us accomplish what we’ve set out to do for that day.
We learn to hide and mask and create who we want others to believe that we are from the outside. But what about who we are on the inside? Why can’t we be naked with all who we meet? After all, how many times have we actually shown our true colors to others? Are you showing them the person that lives in your heart, or are we holding on to our daily lives as the successful, hard working, bringing home the bacon covered up in masked perfection that we know we long to let go of each night we return home, to undo it all and once again, get comfy, in our baggy clothes and let go of it all, with our family and ourselves?
The mirror. Is it reflecting YOU or who you want others to believe that you are?
At what point are we able to let go of the vanity? At what point are we able to enjoy life and be happy with knowing we are happy? At what point are we able to allow ourselves to age gracefully. Our lives are changing, our roles are changing. Why can’t we accept these slow changes and gradually grow into these new roles, the new seasons of life!
I challenge you to do so! I will, starting today. Because honestly, today, I am thankful that there is sunshine. I am alive with healthy children and more importantly, a husband that continues to work hard every day for me and truly loves me! My life isn’t where I thought it would be, but if I did pay attention to my own post yesterday, it’s time to slow down and start embracing the miraculous life that God has given me!
I WILL live my life today in the moment and take each moment to soak it in, and realize that I am better than I deserve!
This is the day that the Lord Has Made!